Billie Lourd will forever be grateful to Ryan Murphy for keeping her detained while filming American Horror Story: Cult. 

“When Ryan offered me ‘Cult,’ it was just a few months after my mom passed, and it honestly helped me process all of my emotions through these characters,” she told Entertainment Tonight of her mom’s sudden death in December 2016.

“Being able to cry for [my character] Winter helped me cry for myself,” she continued. “And it’s been really healing and cathartic in an amazing way, and getting to be around all the incredible people on set, they’ve become like a family to me, and I cannot thank Ryan enough. Honestly, it kind of saved my life.” 

“I love doing this show. It is so much fun and so challenging and has taught me so much. I would do as many seasons as they would offer me,” she says of the new season, Apocalypse. “I mean, obviously I would like to do, like, a sweet romantic comedy on the side too, but, like, this is my jam. I love this show so much. And I would do anything Ryan asked me to do. I trust him with all of my heart.”

We love and miss you, Carrie and Debbie!