Five years ago, Caitlyn Jenner came out as transgender on the cover of Vanity Fair.

The former Olympian eventually became a trailblazing trans person in the eye of the media. According to a new interview with People, Caitlyn felt truly seen when she held her driver’s license photo in July of 2015.

“It was so emotional,” she said of that moment. “There I was. Caitlyn Marie Jenner. But then, I wondered, did Bruce deserve to be thrown away like this? He did a lot of good things. He raised 10 kids. But I wasn’t turning around. Bruce did just about everything he can do. He raised 10 kids. Now what does Caitlyn do?”

“I thought, what a great opportunity to change the world’s thinking; 51 percent of trans people attempt suicide. The murder rate — we’ve been losing one trans woman of color every two weeks,” she added.

However, she was almost immediately controversial given her Republican political views that didn’t match most of the LGBTQ community.

“They said I’m ‘too controversial.’ And that hurt,” she said. “I think I had been wearing rose-colored glasses. I thought I could change the world. Now I know I can only try and change one person at a time.”

Read the rest of the interview at People!