Ricki Lake is starting the new year with a new “liberated” look.

The actress and host wrote an emotional social media post yesterday, revealing that she’s been struggling with hair loss for nearly 30 years, “suffering mostly in silence.”

“It has been debilitating, embarrassing, painful, scary, depressing, lonely, all the things,” she wrote. “There have been a few times where I have even felt suicidal over it. Almost no one in my life knew the level of deep pain and trauma I was experiencing.”

So, she’s decided to own the narrative by giving herself control over her look!

“I buzzed my hair off and it feels so good!” she added. “For 2020 and beyond, I want to be real.”

You look great, Ricki. We love you!