Demi Moore is getting more candid about her struggles with addiction and ex-husband Ashton Kutcher.

In a sit-down interview on Jada Pinkett Smith’s Red Table Talk, the actress explained it was so bad that she became addicted to Ashton himself.

“The addiction and the co-dependency… like my addiction to Ashton — that was probably almost more devastating because it took me seriously away emotionally,” she said sitting beside her daughters Rumer and Tallulah Willis.

Tallulah also weighed in, saying: “Watching the behavior with Ashton, those years, because everyone had left the house and it was just me living there. I felt very forgotten and I feel like I developed and nurtured a narrative where she didn’t love me and I truly believed it. I know that she does, 100 percent but in that moment you’re hurt.”

Demi went on to describe the moment she relapsed while on a trip with Ashton: “Ashton said, ‘I don’t know if alcoholism’s a thing. I think it’s about moderation,’” she recalled. “If I had stayed close to working my program… I, of course, lived the majority of my adult life sober. I was great sober.”

“I made my own story up, that he wanted somebody that he could have wine with that he could do stuff [with]. He’s not the cause of why I opened that door up,” she continued. “I wanted to be something other than who I am. And I gave my power away.”

See more of her epic sit-down below: