Pink’s life may look grand and fabulous, but according to the star it’s not always what it seems. 

The singer spoke to Billboard magazine as she currently wraps her Trauma World Tour, opening up about the struggles she faces as a working mother on the road. 

The mom of son Jameson Moon, 2, and daughter Willow Sage, 8, said that touring with a family feels “f—ing impossible at times,” adding, “There have been many times when I have been sitting in the corner of arena bathrooms crying.” 

“[I’ve said] to myself, ‘There’s a reason why women don’t do this, there’s a reason why moms don’t do this,’” she said. “I’d say the hardest part is just trying to figure it all out. I signed up for this when I was 16 and now I have children and I have a marriage.” 

‘I just want to always make sure that I’m doing right by them. It’s not a simple puzzle anymore — it’s not just me,” she explained.

Read more at Billboard.