Gina Rodriguez Opens Up About Having Depression and Suicidal Thoughts

Gina Rodriguez is opening up about her mental health struggles, two years after she revealed on Instagram that she has a history of anxiety.

Now, while speaking at the Kennedy Forum, she opened up about having depression and suicidal thoughts while she was filming the final season of Jane the Virgin.

“There was a point where I couldn’t…push through every single time anymore, and I’m one of those human beings … where I’m like, I’ll handle it later. I’ll deal with it later. I’ll figure it out later. I just have to do this now. All the while you’re dealing with your silent little dragon in your head,” she told NBC’s Kate Snow. “And it came to a point, and this season was the first season where I had to stop production. I had a really tumultuous season, and I was unafraid for the first time to be like, ‘I can’t.’”

She continued, “I think I started dealing with depression around 16. I started dealing with the idea of — that same concept that I think your husband was talking about — [that] everything is going to be better when I’m gone. Life will be easier; all the woes will be away, all the problems … Then I wouldn’t have to fail or succeed, right? Then all this surmounting pressure would go away. It would just go away.”

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