Colton Haynes has opened up for the first time about his struggle with addiction in an interview with Attitude. The actor also revealed that he completed a four-month treatment program.

“In 10 years, there were maybe 25 days I didn’t drink,” he said. “I remember when I started, it was a couple glasses of wine, and it regressed into really dark times.”

Colton added that things took an even darker turn when he came out as gay in 2016: “I came out and, in a way, my downward spiral started,” he said. “I felt extremely free but at the same time the amount of attention I was getting was making me spin out of control.”

Furthermore, his mother died in May 2018 after a battle with advanced cirrhosis of the liver, which made things even worse for his sobriety. A few months later, he announced his divorce from husband Jeff Leatham after less than a year of marriage.

“I got married and that didn’t work out. That was extremely public and heart-breaking, and right when that was going on, my mom died,” he said. “At that point, I fell apart. My brain broke. I was doing a massive comedy for a studio, showed up to work and got fired on the first day. They said I looked as if I had ‘dead in my eyes’, and I did.”

Read more at Attitude.