Mandy Moore Opens Up About Her Abusive Marriage to Ryan Adams
Mandy Moore has opened up even further about her abusive marriage to musician Ryan Adams.
“I was living my life for him,” she said on the WTF With Marc Maron podcast. “I had no sense of self. I was imperceptible. I was so small in my own world.”
She continued, “I felt like I was drowning. It was so untenable and unsustainable and I was so lonely. I was so sad. … I knew that this wasn’t the rest of my life. I knew that this wasn’t the person I was supposed to be with. I knew that I wasn’t the person I was meant to be.”
Mandy and Ryan’s relationship started while she was on tour in Minneapolis in 2008, approximately a year after her mother left her father for a woman with whom she had been having an affair: “When you feel out of control in a situation, [like] I can’t control my immediate family, and the fact that this particular situation blew us up in a way … I guess I kind of just thought, ‘I’ll create my own family.’”
But after only a year of marriage, Mandy’s career dwindled down.
“I would do little jobs. It’s not like I completely stopped working. I would do things here or there, but it became abundantly clear while I was working, things would completely fall apart at home,” she explained. “I couldn’t do my job because there was just a constant stream of trying to pay attention to this person who needed me and wouldn’t let me do anything else.”
Listen to the podcast HERE.