Grief takes a while to mend, especially when it’s a loved one you held close to you for so long. Meghan McCain has been struggling to come to grips with the death of her father, Senator John McCain, and she admits it’s still hard. 

“66 days. I wake up every morning still instinctually trying and reaching to call you on the phone. I miss you so much Dad it physically hurts my heart,” she captioned a post on social media. “I miss your laugh, your voice, your dark sense of humor, the way you always made me feel safe in a world that seems to have lost its way.”

Meghan also reminisced on her father’s cooking, “I miss your dry ribs and grilled chicken. I miss you singing The Beach Boys on the porch.”

“I miss waking up and drinking cappuccino and reading The New York Times together. I miss your old far side t-shirts and watching John Wayne movies. I miss hiking across the creek to the top of the mountain and looking at the black hawks.”

We love you, Meghan.

 

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66 days. I wake up every morning still instinctually trying and reaching to call you on the phone. I miss you so much Dad it physically hurts my heart. I miss your laugh, your voice, your dark sense of humor, the way you always made me feel safe in a world that seems to have lost its way. I miss your dry ribs and grilled chicken. I miss you singing The Beach Boys on the porch. I miss waking up and drinking cappuccino and reading the New York Times together. I miss your old far side t-shirts and watching John Wayne movies. I miss hiking across the creek to the top of the mountain and looking at the black hawks. I miss the way you cooked eggs and bacon. I love you forever. Stay with me.

A post shared by Meghan McCain (@meghanmccain) on Oct 29, 2018 at 6:29pm PDT