Kirk Douglas is a Hollywood icon, as is his son Michael Douglas. In a new interview with Closer Weekly, Michael opened up about what it was like having a Hollywood legend as a dad.

“My dad was a movie star — having that name was both good and bad,” he said. “People think it’s a silver spoon. It’s not.” He also admitted it was difficult to live in the shadow of the beloved patriarch’s massive success. “For a long time, I can’t say I really enjoyed acting. I was always censoring it, editing it or analyzing it, rather than just going with it.”

“My marriage and my family come before my career now,” he explained. “Do you know what absolute happiness is? For me, it is to wake up my kids in the morning — these little pieces of innocence — and find they’re so happy to see me. It is [an] unequivocal love.”

Like his dad, he has no plans in retiring: “Retiring gives the impression that you’re relieved your job is over,” he explained. “Right now, my health is good, I’m enjoying my career, it’s my 18th year of marriage to Catherine and it couldn’t be better — and all my kids are doing well. So I have very few complaints, and that doesn’t happen very often in life. I’m a happy camper.”