Ricky Martin gave a new interview with Attitude, and opened up about his experience in the closet and still hooking up with men secretly.

“I was a closeted gay man who was making my partners hide,” he said. “I had relationships with other men who were in the closet, and I had other relationships with men who were not in the closet, but because of me went back into the closet.”

“I submitted myself to my career completely,” he added.  “I didn’t open doors to new relationships, and I’m not talking about romantic relationships, I’m talking about any relationship, because I didn’t want people to know me too much… I wouldn’t even sit down and have a cool relationship with amazing producers or great film directors because I was afraid that if they spent more than two hours sitting with me they would know my nature.”

Ricky finally came out publicly in 2010, after years of speculation. “The level of injustice that we as a community were dealing with back then was heavy. I played every role before I even started working on [The Assassination of Gianni Versace].”