.@HillaryClinton on election night: “I had not drafted a concession speech. I had been working on a victory speech” #SundayMorning pic.twitter.com/R6eqeLiTbz

— CBS Sunday Morning (@CBSSunday) September 10, 2017

In an interview with CBS Sunday Morning with Jane Pauley, Hillary Clinton explained what it was like to lose last year’s presidental election to Donald Trump.

“I think I am good, but that doesn’t mean that I am complacent or resolved about what happened,” she said “It still is very painful. It hurts a lot. I just kinda went in the bedroom, laid down on the bed, just thought, ‘Okay. I just have to wait this out,’ But then, midnight, I decided, ‘Well, you know, looks like it’s not gonna work.’”

She continued: “I just felt this enormous letdown — just kind of loss of feeling and direction and sadness. And, you know, Bill just kept saying, ‘Oh, you know, that was a terrific [concession] speech,’ trying to just kinda bolster me a little bit. Off I went, into a frenzy of closet cleaning, and long walks in the woods, playing with my dogs, and, as I write — yoga, alternate nostril breathing, which I highly recommend, trying to calm myself down. And, you know, my share of Chardonnay. It was a very hard transition. I really struggled. I couldn’t feel, I couldn’t think. I was just gob-smacked, wiped out.”

Hillary’s new memoir, What Happened? is out Sept. 12.