Video courtesy of YouTube/Today.

It’s hard to believe it’s been nine years since the death of Casey Anthony’s 2-year-old daughter. In a rare interview with the Associated Press, she still denies knowing much about how Caylee Anthony died despite the countless of people around not believing it.

“Caylee would be 12 right now and would be a total badass,” she said. “I would like to think she’d be listening to classic rock and playing sports and not taking s–t from anybody.” Casey was acquitted in 2011.

Caylee was last seen on Jun 16, 2008, and Casey didn’t report her daughter missing until July 15 — nearly a month later. A day later, she was arrested on charges of child neglect, and directly after told the police Caylee had vanished with the babysitter Zenaida Fernandez-Gonzalez. After being charged with first-degree murder, she pleaded not guilty, then two months later, skeletal remains were found near Casey’s home that was determined to be Caylee.

The Associated Press interview marks the first time Casey is speaking about the case. “Caylee would be 12 right now. And would be a total badass,” she told AP. “I’d like to think she’d be listening to classic rock, playing sports.”

“I’m still not even certain as I stand here today about what happened,” she recalled about her child gone missing. “I understand the reasons people feel about me. I understand why people have the opinions that they do.” She even compared her life to Alice in Wonderland, whereby she’s Alice and the public is the Red Queen. “The queen is proclaiming: ‘No, no, sentence first, verdict afterward. I sense and feel to this day that is a direct parallel to what I lived. My sentence was doled out long before there was a verdict. Sentence first, verdict afterward. People found me guilty long before I had my day in court.”

At the end of the day, prosecutors proved Casey Anthony had been lying, but still convinced the jury of little else. The government failed to establish how Caylee died and they couldn’t find her mother’s DNA on the duct tape they said was used to suffocate her.

Now, she admits she did lie to the police. She lied about being employed at Universal Studios, about leaving Caylee with a babysitter, about telling two people (both imaginary) that Caylee was missing, and about revceiving a phone call from Caylee the day before she was reported missing.

“Even if I would’ve told them everything that I told to the psychologist, I hate to say this but I firmly believe I would have been in the same place,” she said. “Because cops believe other cops. Cops tend to victimize the victims. I understand now … I see why I was treated the way I was even had I been completely truthful.”

Read the full series of interviews at the Associated Press.