So many emotions swarming around the water cooler this morning after Adele’s 25 beat Beyonce’s Lemonade as best album of the year. Most are coming out in support of Queen Bey, and even Adele knows her win might not have been a smart move.

“I can’t possibly accept this award,” Adele said in her speech, “and I’m very humbled and very grateful and gracious, but my life is Beyoncé, and the album to me—the Lemonade album, Beyoncé—was so monumental, and so well thought out, and so beautiful and soul-bearing,”

After the show, in the backstage press room, Adele broke her Grammy in HALF, showing symbolically that she is true to her word and will share the award with Beyonce: “Like I said in my speech, my Album of the Year is Lemonade,” she proclaimed. “So, a piece of me did die inside, as a Beyoncé fan—not going to lie. I was completely rooting for her, I voted for her. I felt like it was her time to win. What the f–k does she have to do to win Album of the Year?”

It’s not a secret that Adele has been a huge fan of Queen Bey since her years in Destiny’s Child — “I spoke to [Beyonce] before just to let her know how honored and privileged I felt to be nominated alongside her,” Adele added, “and we spoke afterward as well and she was very gracious and humble—as always, as we’ve come to expect. And the reason I felt the need to say something is because my album of the year is Lemonade. She is my icon of my whole life.”

Adele is the only artist in history two win Album, Record and Song of the Year twice.