Evan Rachel Wood and Marilyn Manson dated back in 2006, when she was 19 and he was 36 — shocked?!

In a new interview with Rolling Stone, she finally opens up about what it was like dating the most notorious rock stars of all time.

“I met somebody that promised freedom and expression and no judgments,” the Westworld actress said to Rolling Stone, “and I was craving danger and excitement. I looked at my mother one day and said, ‘Mom, I’m gonna get on this tour bus for eight months and see the world and have a crazy journey and find myself, and if people aren’t OK with that, I’m sorry, but I can’t live my life for other people.’

“Most teenagers are searching for identity, and I was thrown into a situation where I was supposed to have that already figured out,” she continued. “Then you’re demonized for figuring it out and getting messy. People would call me a whore when I walked down the street, and you can’t not be hurt by that.”

On her bisexuality, she said “It was always talked about like a phase or something stupid, or something you were doing for attention,” You know, bisexuality is worthy of eye rolls. And I didn’t realize how damaging that was until I tried to have healthy relationships as an adult and realized that there was still all this shame and conditioning and stigma around my sexuality that was really affecting the way I related to people. I think I was taken advantage of because someone knew there was something about me that they could exploit.”