Demi Lovato got candid about her longtime eating disorder and her 2018 drug overdose during an episode of The Ellen DeGeneres Show.

The singer debuted a clip of her upcoming new single “I Love Me” and spoke about how she struggled with feeling “controlled” during her eating disorder recovery.

“So you’ve been honest about your eating disorder,” Ellen began. “I just learned today that when you came for the last six years —  you’re no longer with this team — but there was a team that used to handle everything before you got here. They were told to hide all of the sugar and put everything away so that when you got to your dressing room, even backstage, there was no sugar anywhere near. Did you know that was happening?”

“I didn’t know that until today too,” Demi replied. “But I lived a life for the past six years that I felt like wasn’t my own. Because I struggled really hard with an eating disorder, yes, and that was my primary problem and then it turned into other things, but my life, I just felt was —  I hate to use this word, but I felt like it was controlled by so many people around me.”

She added, “If I was in my hotel room at night, they would take the phone out of the hotel room so I couldn’t call room service, or if there was fruit in my room they took it out because that’s extra sugar. We’re not talking about brownies and cookies and candies and stuff like that, it was fruit.”

She also said that “for many years” she didn’t have a birthday cake. Instead, she ate watermelon cake with “fat-free whipped cream.”

“This year, when I turned 27 — I have a new team — Scooter Braun, my manager, gave me the best birthday cake and I spent it with Ariana Grande, who is one of my good friends, and we just had the best birthday,” she said. “I just remember crying because I was finally eating cake with a manager that didn’t need anything from me and that loved me for who I am and supported my journey.”

“I think at some point it becomes dangerous to try to control someone’s food when they’re in recovery from an eating disorder,” she concluded.

Wow… what a confession. At least her story can be a reminder to always look out for your well-being first. Always!