In a new interview with the New York Times, Ben Affleck revealed that his divorce from ex-wife Jennifer Garner was the biggest regret of his life.

“I drank relatively normally for a long time,” he shared. “What happened was that I started drinking more and more when my marriage was falling apart. This was 2015, 2016. My drinking, of course, created more marital problems.”

Ben and Jennifer separated in 2018 after 13 years of marriage. Together, they share Violet, 14, Seraphina, 11, and Sam, 7.

“The biggest regret of my life is this divorce,” he continued. “Shame is really toxic. There is no positive byproduct of shame. It’s just stewing in a toxic, hideous feeling of low self-worth and self-loathing.”

Of course, the actor acknowledges the role he played, though he’s trying not to “obsess” over it.

“It’s not particularly healthy for me to obsess over the failures — the relapses — and beat myself up,” he said. “I have certainly made mistakes. I have certainly done things that I regret. But you’ve got to pick yourself up, learn from it, learn some more, try to move forward.”

“People with compulsive behavior, and I am one, have this kind of basic discomfort all the time that they’re trying to make go away,” he explained. “You’re trying to make yourself feel better with eating or drinking or sex or gambling or shopping or whatever. But that ends up making your life worse. Then you do more of it to make that discomfort go away. Then the real pain starts. It becomes a vicious cycle you can’t break. That’s at least what happened to me.”

Wow. Well, divorce is never easy. Thanks for being so open, Ben.