Former America’s Next Top Model star Adrianne Curry opened up in a lengthy blog post about her intense breast implant removal surgery.

The 37-year-old shared graphic photos, beginning the post with a warning that the message was “brought to you by Oxycodone.”

Adrianne explained how she prepared for the January 6 procedure. She and her husband, Matthew Rhode, flew to Chicago on January 4 to meet with surgeon Dr. Mussat.

The next day, she started pre-op.

Preparing for the worse, since she has a “history of the worst luck on earth,” Adrianne writes that she decided to check in to the emergency room and pay out of pocket.

“If so many women were virtually pain free, wouldn’t I be after getting it done??” she wrote. “Should I waste over 600 dollars on a room when I have read so many stories of perfect warrior women doing cartwheels around their jobs and kids after an explant? I was questioned why I wasn’t going back to my hometown to heal, the works. I know my body. I don’t heal well, anything bad that could happen? Well, it usually happens to me.”

“They gave me some happy juice so I would calm down a bit before wheeling me in,” she continued. “Like many before me…I don’t remember jack s—! Well, I do remember telling someone I sell Avon and left entertainment because they’re all buttholes. That’s it.”

After the operation, her husband helped her drink and eat, and the model thought everything was fine until “the pain started” again.

Adrianne wondered if she was a “wuss” though, since she heard from other women how easy this was.

Her husband explained she had a “hematoma so big” it looked like she “got only one fake titty.” This meant Adrianne needed a second surgery, but she could not be sedated before being put under.

“Of course, NO LUCK ME not only had insurance deny my surgery…for getting rid of my titty that had popped and oozed inside me…AND I needed two surgeries in a day!!” Adrianne wrote. “I tried to negotiate NOT going to surgery again with the Dr. Good ole drugged up me….luckily, she was having none of it. My nurse was so empathetic and kind, she was exactly what I needed. Combined with my husband and my Doctor, I felt people gave a shit and that it was ok from me to admit I was hurting. I was, I mean, that hurt more than both boob jobs and the myomectomy I had in my past.”

Read the rest of Adrianne’s crazy intense story HERE.