Nikki Bella still cries over her split with John Cena, with whom she was in a relationship with for six years.

She opened up about it on the latest episode of The Bellas Podcast, saying that she’s still in the process of healing nearly one year later.

“As far as how you get over a breakup, you really have to do the work on yourself,” she said. “You really, truly, have to love yourself and every day dedicate something to you that is making you better.”

Nikki also admitted that there are days where she becomes emotional just thinking about it.

“You also have to let yourself cry. That’s one thing my life coach helped me a lot with, because I still, you guys, get days when I cry about my breakup,” she said. “But we were together a long time, we had an amazing relationship and an amazing bond and a lot of love for each other.”