Lena Dunham has revealed that she is six months sober after deciding to quit the anti-anxiety drug Klonopin. The TV creator recently shared the details with Dax Shepard’s podcast Armchair Expert.

“I’ve been sober for six months. My particular passion was Klonopin,” she said. “I was having crazy anxiety and having to show up for things that I didn’t feel equipped to show up for. But I know I need to do it, and when I take a Klonopin, I can do it.”

She later added that Klonopin made her “feel like the person I was supposed to be… It was like suddenly I felt like the part of me that I knew was there was freed up to do her thing.” 

Things seemed ok until she started doing it more frequently: “It stopped being ‘I take one when I fly,’ to ‘I take one when I’m awake.’ I didn’t have any trouble getting a doctor to tell me, ‘No you have serious anxiety issues, you should be taking this. This is how you should be existing,’ ” she said.

“I was diagnosed with pretty serious PTSD. I have a few sexual traumas in my past and then I had all these surgeries and then I had my hysterectomy after a period of really extreme pain,” she said. “It stopped feeling like I had panic attacks and it started feeling like I was a living panic attack. The only thing that was notable was the parts of the day where I didn’t feel like I was going to barf and faint.”