After being robbed and bound/gagged at gunpoint in a Paris hotel in 2016, Kim Kardashian went off the radar for a while — but now, two years later, she says the experience has changed her life. 

“My life has definitely changed a lot in the last two years from that experience and just wanting more privacy,” Kim said on The Alec Baldwin Show, before revealing that she “almost lost” herself in the year following the robbery. “In the last three months, I feel like I’ve come out of my shell a little bit more, back to who I was… I was never depressed, but I wasn’t motivated to get up and work like I used to. It shook me.”

“I was literally – my mom [Kris Jenner] had to come over and say, ‘Will you get out of bed? Will you put on something else other than sweats? Put on a little bit of makeup, feel like yourself again,'” she added. 

Still, she says she blames herself for the robbery: “I’m totally a realist. So I know, you post on social media your locations, your jewelry, your bags, what you’re doing, where you’re going, your cars, your stuff. I would always talk about my stuff,” she said. “There was a lot of me that measured who I was by how much I had.”