John Cena and Nikki Bella broke off their engagement, just weeks before they were to be married — and it left both of them in a pool of abandonment.

“It’s been incredibly reflective which is amazing, but it is very difficult — I had my heart broken out of nowhere, or for me, it was out of nowhere,” John told Hoda Kotb and Kathie Lee Gifford. “And anyone who has experienced that knows that it comes with a series of bad feelings.”

He adds he’s hoping to get back together, and that he’s still in touch with Nikki.

“For anyone out there speculating on what I am doing with my life now, I still love Nicole, I still would love to marry Nicole, I still would love to have a family with Nicole,” he said. “There was an unfortunate set of circumstances where our relationship ended. There has been a lot of speculation recently about me being seen in public and everybody is thinking like, ‘Oh, John Cena is enjoying the single life.’ No, I was supposed to be married and having a honeymoon over these two weeks. It is the first time in 15 years that I have taken a vacation. I am in my house alone, surrounded by these emotionally strong memories and every day from 6-9, I get out of the house and talk to strangers as social interaction.”