The world mourned when Ashton Kutcher and Demi Moore split up years ago (their divorce was settled in 2013). Now, he’s opening up about what he actually went through all those years ago.

“Right after I got divorced, I went to the mountains for a week by myself,” he told Dax Shepard on his podcast Armchair Expert. “I took all my computers away, my phone my everything … I just had a notepad and a pen and water and tea for a week.”

“I started to hallucinate on day two, which was fantastic … It was pretty wonderful,” he joked. He also spent the weeklong fast writing down all his regrets in past relationships and sending letters to each ex he had wronged.

Well, whatever it was worked seeing as he’s now married to Mila Kunis and has two children.