It feels like most of America watched This Is Us after the Super Bowl to watch the death of everyone’s favorite husband, friend, and dad Jack Pearson — including Mandy Moore, who did a stellar acting performance by the way in last night’s episode.

Mandy, who portrays Rebecca Pearson on the show, shared a selfie on her Instagram story Thursday after screening the episode with the rest of her cast. “Watched the Super Bowl episode last night with the cast and I’m still not okay,” she wrote.