The former assistant to Harvey Weinstein, Zelda Perkins, has broken her silence in her first TV interview. She accused Harvey of attempting to raper a colleague of theirs 19 years ago, and spoke about it with BBC’s Newsnight.

Zelda revealed that she signed a Non-Disclosure Agreement, which kept her from speaking out about Harvey’s assaults, calling him a “master manipulator.”

“The last 19 years have been distressing, where I’ve not been allowed to speak, where I’ve not been allowed to be myself,” she said, explaining that she signed the NDA in 1998 when she was 24 and received a £125,000 ($168,000 U.S.) buyout — though was never allowed to receive a copy of the agreement.

“It’s not just distressing for me, but for lots of women who have not been able to own their past, and for many of them, their trauma. Although the process I went through was legal, it was immoral.”