Chrissy Teigen recently opened up about her alcohol consumption, saying she basically drinks “too much.”

“I was, point blank, just drinking too much,” she said to Cosmopolitan. “I got used to being in hair and makeup and having a glass of wine. Then that glass of wine would carry over into me having one before the awards show. And then a bunch at the awards show. And then I felt bad for making kind of an ass of myself to people that I really respected. And that feeling, there’s just nothing like that. You feel horrible. It’s not a good look for me, for John [Legend], for anybody.”

She goes on to say she has a history of alcohol abuse, and that she can’t have just “one drink.”

“Nobody really brought it up to me,” Teigen said. “They just assumed that it was OK because I always felt OK the next morning. I knew in my heart it wasn’t right. It makes you very short with people. People think it’s cutesy and fun to go on these boozy brunches, but there’s more to it. I’ve never once been like, ‘I’m sure glad I had that boozy brunch!'”

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