In an interview with Sirius XM’s Sway in the Morning, Jada Pinkett Smith opened up about her relationship with the rapper Tupac Shakur, and said that at the time she met him, she was dealing drugs.

“It’s kind of hard because I haven’t really told the whole story,” she said. “One of the things that’s very interesting that I’ve never really said before is that when I first met Pac, I was a drug dealer. That’s how we started. Then as I was coming out, something very bad happened to me. As I was coming out of the life, he was coming more into the life.”

Many have looked at Jada and Tupac’s relationship with a bit of cynicism throughout the years, but for the Girls Trip star, she says it was about “survival.”

“I know that most people want to always connect it in this romance thing and that’s just because they don’t have the story,” she continued. “It was based in survival, how we held each other down and when you have somebody that has your back when you feel like you’re nothing, that’s everything. There’s a lot of components to our story that we’ve never shared for a very specific reason. I just decided that this one little piece was important to share finally because it gives more insight to who we were. It was about survival and it’s always been about survival between us.”

The actress also said she would be writing a book about the experience.

Jada also wasn’t happy with the way their relationship was portrayed in the Tupac biopic All Eyez on Me.