It goes without saying that season nine is RuPaul’s Drag Race’s biggest and most interesting to date. The queens are getting real deep, ya’ll!

In an exclusive episode preview from Entertainment Weekly, Eureka O’Hara — a comedy queen who incited an argument with fellow competitors Sasha Velour and Valentina after making an off-color joke about eating disorders last week — approaches her colleagues with an apology for her behavior.

“I also apologize to you. It’s a sensitive issue for me because I was severely anorexic for my entire early 20s. I was so unhealthy looking. People would call me E.T. because of the way I looked on the street. I have a lot of hurt from it, still,” Sasha said.

Valentina responded: “This is just such a touchy subject for me because I do probably still have an eating disorder. Before I left [to film the show], I promised my mom that I would every single day. It’s so hard because sometimes I feel like I’m force-feeding myself.”

Then Shea Coulee joins: “I applaud you guys for opening up because in the past I had a deep, deep battle with bulimia. About three years ago, I was feeling all these pressures [from] the beauty standards that exist within the gay community, and it’s something I had a lot of shame about. Sometimes people don’t understand that, though we come across as these really strong, beautiful creatures, sometimes we’re really struggling on the inside. I’m surprised about how many girls have struggled with this. There’s power in being able to confide in your sisters and have them support you.”

Eating disorders are no joke, you guys.

If you or someone you know is struggling, contact the helpline of the National Eating Disorders Association at (800) 931-2237.

RuPaul’s Drag Race airs Fridays at 8 p.m. EST on VH1.